Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Being a worrier
Are any of you worriers? I am a worrier. I worry about everything. It is definitely connected to having very little or low confidence too. It's something I need to work on for sure. People who know me will know that that is just how I am. I don't need constant reassurance or my hand holding. I don't worry about money or the kids much. Those sort of things I can deal with. I don't worry about Ben. I know him. I do worry about people I don't know too well. I worry about upsetting people. I also think having kids and being with them all day means I have too much time to think about stuff. I need to buy a kindle. That's for sure. I also need a holiday to get away from being stuck in one place for 2 years now. I need to draw and print more. If I can convert worry into creativity, then I win!
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A Kindle helps a bit... I bought a tiny mp3 player, and listen to audiobooks while I'm printing - and I've found it helps a lot :)
ReplyDeleteOooooh, that's a great idea Jesse!! I've not tried audio books before. :) Hipe you're well?
ReplyDeleteI think it is your personality which shows through in your work. If you weren't a worrier you might find your work loses some of its detail and finish.
ReplyDeleteHmm, yes.. I'm really fussy about the quality of my work. I think if someone is going to pay £40 for one of my cushions then it should be worth £40...
DeleteI love your prints. They are amazing. I can relate to the being at home all day and too much time to think. When I'm really busy I don't worry as much.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Cynthia and thank you for liking my work on Pinterest too! :) I like being busy. ;)
DeleteI do worry sometimes, less so now than I used to. I think it just means you care, which can't be a bad thing. Also, maybe there is something to the "sensitive artist" stereotype. When you're looking at the world for inspiration, you can't help but realize that the world is looking at you too.
ReplyDeleteI remember my grandmother telling me "there are 6 billion people in the world, they're not all going to like you, and you're never going to make them all happy.", which was super freeing and became my 16 year old self's mantra, and has remained so ever since. My super nerdy best friend has given me similar advice in the form of "given the number of possible reactions to any situation or stimulus, it is statistically impossible that any 2 people will agree on everything". This one has really helped in the face of relationship anxiety, i.e. getting more upset than is warranted when my fiance/friends/boss and I disagree on things.
I work hard to be a good person, to treat others as I would want to be treated and to leave things better than I found them. I accept that it will never be enough for some people, but if I am happy with who I am, that's all I can do.
Also, I work from home and talk radio/audiobooks/podcasts make a HUGE difference. It at least feels like conversing with people, probably mostly because I talk back to them. I also make sure to get out for a bit each day, even if it's just to my neighborhood store. It's amazing what 5-10 minutes of interaction can do to cabin fever brain overrun. As a bonus I now love my neighborhood, because I've met so many neat people while roaming around looking for someone to talk to. :)
Kerry, I think you're spot on. I don't see myself as an 'artist' but maybe I should. I am very sensitive. It gets pretty bad when I am looking for ideas and inspiration. I also know that when I feel this way, sometimes, something good will come from it. Usually, a new design or a new idea (which I have had with the repeats I did!).
DeleteI wish I had clever grandma..then perhaps I wouldn't be the nutter I am now! :P I agree that people are bound to disagree. However, the unknown is something I find really frustrating.
I wish I lived in your neighbourhood! ;)